There are nights I lie awake
Tracing patterns in the air
Just before daylight breaks
Into a secret world I stare

Effortlessly I fly above
Dragons, angels, and lairs
Music only fairies sing of
Floats gently everywhere

Shimmering in the water
Swims crystal fish that talk
Over by the flowers there
Are elves who pick shamrocks

Chattering from above
Are playful stars that shine
Their brilliant rays of light
On all of God's design

This secret world I keep
Lays dormant in my mind
A sweet escape from sleep
My dreams lay undefined

Random Blog Entry (first part I found, second part I elaborated)

Are you someone that is liked?  I am - in general I think most people like me.  And it’s important to me.  I make an effort to smile, to look people in the eye, to pay attention you know all of that stuff that makes you feel like you matter.  How do you deal with people that don’t give a shit about being liked.  That are rude.  And that clearly do not like you.  They don’t look you in the eye - they talk around you - they look at you for a brief second and then quickly look away like - shit you caught me, I acknowledged you exist, shit I’m screwed now.

So what do you do?  Do you continue to be the Barney against their Scrooge?  Do you fight back and assume an "I don't care either but secretly I am completely frustrated as to why you don't like me" stance?  I mean, what did you ever do to this person to make them just simply... not.... like.... you.   All you can think about is how can ANYONE not like me?  I'm funny, friendly, and say sorry when I'm supposed to even when it's someone else who stepped on me.  So what happens next?  You try even HARDER to make them like you and start smiling extra hard, cracking jokes at every chance, offering to go out of your way to do things... and starting to look like a very sad puppy.  Until you realize... what the effin hell man, I'm starting to lose my self-control over someone who I just met for 10 minutes.  Who is this person?  They sho ain't barak obama.  Why the hell do I need to impress them so bad?  It's because this person just simply doesn't want to or care about acknowledging YOUR existence and that's what pisses you off.  Because hey, you got lots of friends, your boss likes you, you have a new shirt on your back... and your hair looks good today!  You're almost on the verge of leaning over that counter and shaking that person silly while saying "Pay attention to me!!" like a spoiled 5-year old.  Wait, how old are we again?

There's Hope - India Arie

Back when I had a little
I thought that I needed a lot

A little was over rated,
But a lot was a little too complicated

You see-Zero didn't satisfy me
A million didn't make me happy

That's when I learned a lesson
That it's all about your perception

Hey-are you a pauper or a superstar
So you act, so you feel, so you are

It ain't about the size of your car
It's about the size of the faith in your heart

Learn your lesson:

Too little, too late.

My Own Pillar

When a handsome man catches my eye,

I falter with words and come off quite shy

I’m better with beginnings instead of goodbyes

And choose to write over subtract or multiply

 

My hands stay moist regardless of heat

I tried to go vegan but can’t resist meat

The jams I rock to flow in more than one beat

To succeed is when not to give into defeat

 

Embracing change still stays my belief

So multiple identities bring me relief

My relationships feed on loyalty's meat

Making people comfortable since 1983

 

I pray loudly to stars and everything in between

There's times my heart aches as if it needs codeine

I’ve fought my reflection since I was sixteen

Only now the mirror has cracked at the war unseen

 

I say what I mean yet I get confused

When to be strong, soft, or deeply amused

I smile too much and it gets misused

Some become friends and some end up bruised

 

I’m a poor liar and it shows on my face

Chasing the unseen is my road to heartache

Still, I wouldn’t have it any other way

My life comes once and only once on display

Lifehouse - Make Me Over

I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind

Changing myself just to stand alone in your eyes