My Own Pillar

When a handsome man catches my eye,

I falter with words and come off quite shy

I’m better with beginnings instead of goodbyes

And choose to write over subtract or multiply

 

My hands stay moist regardless of heat

I tried to go vegan but can’t resist meat

The jams I rock to flow in more than one beat

To succeed is when not to give into defeat

 

Embracing change still stays my belief

So multiple identities bring me relief

My relationships feed on loyalty's meat

Making people comfortable since 1983

 

I pray loudly to stars and everything in between

There's times my heart aches as if it needs codeine

I’ve fought my reflection since I was sixteen

Only now the mirror has cracked at the war unseen

 

I say what I mean yet I get confused

When to be strong, soft, or deeply amused

I smile too much and it gets misused

Some become friends and some end up bruised

 

I’m a poor liar and it shows on my face

Chasing the unseen is my road to heartache

Still, I wouldn’t have it any other way

My life comes once and only once on display